I'll try to keep this short, since I know I put a lot of boilerplate in my writing, which presumably detracts from the quality of things said.
Out of all the things I hate, hypocrisy is probably one of the greatest. It is the inability to tell the truth and be consistent that is the root of most problems in life.
I have known Christian for quite a while. 3 years I think? The timings are a bit fuzzy in my head.
With that wisdom of Christian in mind, as of now if I could change one thing that I did in year 8, it would be to never be friends with Christian.
He has become contrarian and hypocritical in recent months. And because he is my friend, I didn't say anything about it because it simply felt wrong. But I can't anymore, because I feel too hurt by it all.
It makes me feel physically sick, because I think I'm slowly coming to terms with the real kind of person that Christian is. I've discovered that beneath the surface, Christian is just a selfish individual, who believes that he cannot be wrong. That the ideals he believes in must be righteous in his own twisted and incomprehensible way.
He said he was going to "apologise" earlier, and that he wanted to "start anew". So either he couldn't care enough to read through what I said (which I kinda don't blame him, its quite dense text), or he just fundamentally doesn't understand that I don't want to forget it all. I want him to change, and I know I've made mistakes but that doesn't give him the right to be relentlessly cruel to me.
Right now, I just can't stand him. I feel uncomfortable talking to him, sitting next to him, and so on.
As mentioned earlier, this is why my friendship with him is my biggest regret. He is a traitor to his own beliefs, supposedly championing free thought while striking me down for expression my own.
When I made the decision to privatise my intellectual property(not the code), even though that shouldn't break the accepted rules of FOSS, he removed me from his town page. Despite saying the town is a democracy, he acts like a dictator, albeit a very childish and hormonal one.
I still consider myself a part of the town, but if that town decides to condone and support Christian's unfounded actions, I don't know whether I can anymore.
In summary, unless he changes, I don't want to be friends with the person he has become.
With love(but not for dasindu(actually yes dasindu please help me in phys))
Ed
Editor's note: This was written a while ago. Pretty emotionally heavy, can't remember why I wrote it. 3/10 needs more among us references
